| THE GLOOM BEFORE THE STORM |
[09 Jul 2006|05:43pm] |
I don't feel well.
I'm supposed to meet up with my daughter's dad this morning. But as usual the bastard isn't texting... I'm half expecting to get a message saying: SORRY NOT FEELING WELL HAVE TO CANCEL.
It's always like that. He doesn't have time for his offspring but to share bodily fluids with his bimbo? Well, that's another story.
Yes, I'm blazing mad. And I'm afraid. Cj is just one years old but what if three years from now and he's still like that? What if he makes this a habit... This him being a major let down during visits?
I really don't want to have my daughter's heart broken by the same man who crushed my life.
Oh help...
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| when in ROME |
[09 Jul 2006|04:31pm] |
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If you think that this is really taken from Europen countryside think again...
Actually this is a vacant lot smacked in the middle of Fairview where I would take my early morning jogs whenever I can. It's behind SM Fairview where the folks who has nothing more to do and who could afford to pay 2 grand plus for their fitness first membership are "sweating" it out....
I would never exchange this beauty for an airconditioned ride on a threadmill.
By the way, if you are asking why I'm wearing a cardigan while walking in a park here in the Philippines, the answer is, it's 5:15 am and I just came from work and I decided to take a brief stroll amongst the grass.
And thanks for that,I'm now sick. hehehehe
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| JASON MRAZ IS LOVE |
[09 Apr 2006|01:33pm] |
 I've been having my fill of Mr.A-Z for a few days now...
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| hmmmm... |
[08 Apr 2006|04:34pm] |
| You Should Be a Science Fiction Writer | 
Your ideas are very strange, and people often wonder what planet you're from.
And while you may have some problems being "normal," you'll have no problems writing sci-fi.
Whether it's epic films, important novels, or vivid comics...
Your own little universe could leave an important mark on the world! |
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| scrappin sunday |
[02 Apr 2006|06:01pm] |
I'm at work... it's sunday...*thumps head on the nearest hardiflex wall*
sunday used to mean joy riding with my bestfriend... guitar strummin...lazing around...reading a good book under the covers... watching the rain on the green leaves of the trees around our house...movie dates with a blur of unknown faces...icecream and cake...afternoon mass...early morning jog...noontime variety shows...writing some stuff on my diary while sipping warm tea...
NOW... it's just tons of HP computers and silence... ENOUGH TO RENDER YOU BRAIN DEAD!
SOMEONE SAVE ME!
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| heart and soul~shit i'm a misunderstood soul! |
[02 Apr 2006|01:48pm] |
I know that I'm near the bottom of the scum pond but hey this is pathetic dude...I'm still stuck at work. Doing blog things is really beneath me... That means that I'm really bored.That means that in this following seconds that I'm trying to print the nonsense babble that are playing in my head my life is just wasting away into oblivion..
Sad but true| You Are a Retrospective Soul | 
The most misunderstood of all the soul signs.
Sometimes you even have difficulty seeing yourself as who you are.
You are intense and desire perfection in every facet of your life.
You're best described as extremely idealistic, hardworking, and a survivor.
Great moments of insight and sensitivity come to you easily.
But if you aren't careful, you'll ignore these moments and repeat past mistakes.
For you, it is difficult to seperate the past from the present.
You will suceed once you overcome the disappoinments in life.
Souls you are most compatible with: Traveler Soul and Prophet Soul |
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| MY ALIASES pretty funny... |
[02 Apr 2006|01:22pm] |
This is so funny... It made me laugh... Cristina Sofia as a designer name is cool... Calvin Klein I'll beat your lily ass! My socialite name is sooo freakin shabby...My detective name is pathetic, but I dig my starwars name and my rock star and punk band name are coolness personified!
Cristina Palomer Burwell's Aliases
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Your movie star name: Tacos Emilio
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Your fashion designer name is Cristina Sofia
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Your socialite name is Tinay Florida
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Your fly girl / guy name is C Bur
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Your detective name is Penguin UPIS
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Your barfly name is Tostillas Ice
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Your soap opera name is Palomer Katipunan
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Your rock star name is Samba Cyclone
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Your star wars name is Crimyr Burjef
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Your punk rock band name is The Enigmatic Utraelectromagnetictop
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| WHICH IS WHICH |
[01 Apr 2006|05:00pm] |
Which Romantic Comedy Heroine Are You?
You're Libby Reynolds(Kelly Preston - 'What a Girl Wants')You've had your share of hearbreak but have a tremendous sense of self. You know who you are and that's something you've never compromised. You love deeply but you value your space and allow the same courtesy to others. You're an avid believer that if you love someone, let them go. If they love you, they will return. Your strength of character is your greatest asset. You're vintage rock and roll, a flower child born too late. You sing and write poetry to express yourself.All in all, you're the genuine article.
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| Missing PEYUPS... |
[29 Mar 2006|07:17pm] |
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I don't know why but I miss good old UP... the sights...the sounds... everything. Manong fishballs near Vinzons... The isawan in front of Kalayaan... The library steps... Laughing while rolling around the green carapet of Sunken Garden. Life was carefree back then. All that I have to think about is how to pass my 15 units of precious knowledge.... SIghs
the street in front of PALMA
grafitti
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[25 Mar 2006|08:27pm] |
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I cried earlier while I was at work... I need comfort
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| RANTS |
[24 Mar 2006|09:05am] |
 I'm not enjoying my work. I don't know why. It just sucks to sit in front of a computer monitor all day wishing that you are somewhere else enjoying your sweet summer days. But then again as a friend told me earlier through chat we can't always have what we really want. And through the rants and the whines we know deep down that our lives isn't really that sucky and we are better off than 50% of the world's population.
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You know what I really wanna do? I wanna go spelunking with Greg in the underground caverns of Palawan. I wanna stay with him for a good glorious weekend and feel like a princess once more. I miss him... I don't know how this affair would end. I know it would crash down with me having a broken heart that no one would ever mend... But as long as God would grant him a longer life I would forever be with him.
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I MISS MYSELF... nothing would beat that kind of sadness I guess...
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| If life is like those of HAM-HAMs |
[23 Mar 2006|01:11pm] |
Everyday me and my daughter would wake up to this show. It's your typical anime, reminiscent of Pokemon and the works but something about it really grab my attention.
Okay, you have cute little hamsters running around with their owners and they have this awesome hamster dance that my baby couldn't resist mimicking. But the most important part of this silly little cartoon is that they end everything with a happy positive note.
The end of the show is usually the same with Laura, the protagonist girl, and Hamtaro, the lead hamster, sharing their day's adventures together and saying to one another that the next day would be a lot happier and all of those optimistic sh*t.
And it doesn't hurt that the drawings are OH SO CUTE....
hahahahaha....
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| Cheap Thrills |
[23 Mar 2006|12:51pm] |
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I've been leaving small notes to this guy from my work place. IT's really not anything mushy inclined. I guess I'm just looking for cheap thrills because I'm bored stiff with my job... Or what I call my PSEUDO JOB. Oh well, it just sucks right? He didn't left me a note today. I guess he got pissed off with something that I said in my last note or something like that. Or maybe HE THINKS THAT I'M PSYCHO GIRL WHO HAS A HUGE CRUSH ON HIM! Bleeeeeech! Anyways,it's just cheap thrills and nothing more that I'm after. I'm done with men. They are heartless, egoistical monsters. And I'm through with them.
But then again, why do I have this feeling that it's just all bitterness and nothing more.
Sighs
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| Life |
[22 Mar 2006|05:16pm] |
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 I never imagined myself 10 years ago to be in front of a slim towered computer talking with anonymous voices and getting paid for a pseudo job that I really don't enjoy.
But here I am... A call center girl in a call center universe. Struggling day by day to keep my sanity intact... Barely winning, but then again.
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I JUST LEARNED THAT ONE OF MY EX ROOMMATES BACK IN COLLEGE JUST GAVE BIRTH.OH WELL... YEAH. GOOD FOR HER BECAUSE SHE'S MARRIED AND ALL. I can never imagine myself being hooked with a guy for life. Maybe it's just me but I think that now that I have excess baggages to carry I think that the saying "Singlehood is a blessing" seems to be true. Oh well...
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I'M LOOKING FOR THE PERFECT MAN WHORE... DO YOU KNOW ONE?
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| out of reach |
[18 Mar 2006|02:07pm] |
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I find it weird talking to him once again...It has been four years.Of on and off friendship and then some.Hindi ko alam kong papaano kami naging magkaibigan eh hindi naman kami gaanong nagkikita pero ganun talaga siguro di ba?
Alam nyo naman di ba yung movie na "BEfore Sunrise"? Ganun kami... Usap lang ng usap... Mga kuro-kuro sa amin na wala namang katuturan. Mahirap pero ganun talaga eh.Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit apat na taon na kaming magkaibigan eh parang wala naman kaming similarities kung tutuusin.Mayaman sila... Dukha ako... Pero siguro hindi ka naman magtetelebabad ng walong oras kung wala naman talaga kayong pag-uusapan di ba?
Mahilig ako sa Chuck Taylors na shoes...rock music...banda rito at banda roon..Ice cream... matulog...kumanta..maggitara...mag-sound tripping...mag-road tripping...magmunimuni at maghinuhinuha...
Mahilig rin si Jefwie sa mga ganoong bagay.
Pero ewan... Ang gulo. Alam kong walang patutunguhan itong entry na to pero ganun talaga. Nakakabadtrip.
Sometimes you need to hold unto what you believe in... Because sometimes that's the only thing that is keeping you sane. That small little thing that you've kept alive in you head that is so far out in reality. It's okay to be afraid to step out of the nutshell...Because REALITY can be crude and cruel most of the times and wake up calls could be harsh....
- BURWELLISM
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| hodge |
[17 Mar 2006|07:12pm] |
I should've let go of you three years ago... BUt I guess after all the bad things that happened between us you would still forever be in the deep chambers of my memory... Whenever your name would echo in my head it would always come with a bitter sweet ache that I could not ignore. You would always come with a smile and a tear.
Time should've let me heal... BUt still it tears me apart to know that you haven't forgiven the things that I've done and the lies that I've told you.
We could've been best friends... I know that we are worlds apart. You are a posh suburban kid who pretend that he is poor and I was a naive girl who pretends that she knows everything in the world.
That was three years ago Hodge. I wish that you could forgive me but then again some things are better left unspoken. It's going to be your birthday soon... We've known each other for 4 years now... I don't know what went wrong but they went wayward and now here we are... Trapped in this ward of hatred.
I'm sorry....
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